It looks like we have good news from our corporate CEO. It appears that the company is now running so lean and have made so many cuts that a lay-off may not be necessary. Of course I feel like shit for those good people that did get the ax. Our business is stabilizing as we get more orders. Also, our department has a few pet-projects that will enable us to keep working through the slow-down phase. A benefit of this situation is that we were given more vacation--hell, that's great all the way around, isn't. If this is all we have to do keep our jobs for the long-haul, I'm in! More time off? There are a few folks that decided to take month long vacations in concert with the regular Christmas shut-down vacation, it's all about opportunity. My wife suggested that I take about a week off and just work on my writing. It's a good idea but unfortunately, I'm going to end up goofing off, kind of like I am now.
I'm writing at work more these days and actually getting into some problem solving. There are few graphics issues that need to be solved that will enable us to get our job done effectively. I've been lagging on this. I'll deal with it tomorrow.
My health... Eh, I don't know where this is right now. I actually think it's ok because I ran up Mount Israel in Elfin Forest in about 23 minutes, I've done it in 15. But I think I was inspired this time because I was angry and anger always helps me do things physically better.
Anger--it's not an emotion that I feed often but there are a few people that are really talented in pulling it out, I'm not going into names because it doesn't matter. What matters is that I know good ways of venting out my anger and canceling out bad feelings.
Ok, I have to return to my homework. That's it for now. Things at work are stable for now, very stable actually.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Things could be better.
It's hard to stay optimistic but we're doing the best we can. But, what if our best isn't good enough? Well? That's what harmonicas are for, learn to play the blues which is what I focus on. It's bad enough that newscasters and talk show hosts are prophets of doom. It's funny, they think the're being helpful. But I wonder. Those Shleprocks and I share the same genetic form, that of a human. How is it that I can see that talking about all this is the path to darkness and they can't? Is it because they're being directed by Satan (thanks Dana Carvey)? No, c'mon--the devil doesn't exist, at least, not in the spiritual sense but I digress. Then again, humans share the first two chromosomes with snakes, I guess some hold on to those until they take the human shape of a radio talk show host.
But that's ok, they don't have to take responsibility for the information they're putting out. As long as someone is listening to it or reading it, that's all that matters--who gives a rat's ass that someone out there might read or listen to the drivel of pessimissm and blow their head and that of their family's off. They're not responsible, the gun-wielding madman is. That's right, yeah, that's how it works and if I keep telling myself that, I'll believe it. But before I get overwhelmed by bitter sarcasm let me focus on the purpose of this entry.
Things aren't that great at work. Eventhough Solar isn't laying anyone off, our parent company, Caterpillar laid down the financial law to 25,000 valuable employess. So when does the axe swing our way? My expectation is never, we're pretty slim as it is and I think we can waether this storm. I just don't know for how long.
Everyone here is in fairly good spirits and expecting our yearly bonus. It's hard to say what the future holds for us though.
But that's ok, they don't have to take responsibility for the information they're putting out. As long as someone is listening to it or reading it, that's all that matters--who gives a rat's ass that someone out there might read or listen to the drivel of pessimissm and blow their head and that of their family's off. They're not responsible, the gun-wielding madman is. That's right, yeah, that's how it works and if I keep telling myself that, I'll believe it. But before I get overwhelmed by bitter sarcasm let me focus on the purpose of this entry.
Things aren't that great at work. Eventhough Solar isn't laying anyone off, our parent company, Caterpillar laid down the financial law to 25,000 valuable employess. So when does the axe swing our way? My expectation is never, we're pretty slim as it is and I think we can waether this storm. I just don't know for how long.
Everyone here is in fairly good spirits and expecting our yearly bonus. It's hard to say what the future holds for us though.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
heading back for 2009.
We received an email from Caterpillar informing us that business for 2009 looks good but they couldn't guarantee anything for 2010. Big shocker... I'm grateful that I've kept my job this long despite the current recessed global situation. Actually, I'm not worried for some reason, probably because I still have a job and I haven't taken on any large purchases, we're staying light and paying off as many things as we can.
I'm grateful for my employment and for the time I've been there and have left with this company. The fact is, I'm not doing the sort of job that I'd like to be doing. Interestingly, this job is the manifestation of something that I thought I wanted to do. I wanted to be involved in SGML based, technical publishing that was gradually moving into XML technology. We're doing that for the most part but there is a lot of resistance, that and I'm not really sure how to get the department involved in this.
Even if we did, so what? What happens after we publish using XML based technology. I'm not a developer nor do I want to be one and that's what the department would need--a cold, hard developer. So I return to do my job, the job I manifested for myself.
So... Do I manifest another job? Yes, but life's happening as I'm waiting for my perfect job. Solar is not my career nor do I want it to be but I do enjoy the steady paycheck. The other concern is that I haven't had a "choice" job since I worked at IVID communications creating 3D animation.
In order to manifest anything you have to be clear about what you want. You don't have to know how it's going to happen or the mechanism but you do have to try, you should prepare and expect it and you should visualize the final outcome. I knew I'd so something like what I'm doing for Solar Turbines and I expected that I'd be working with nice people, which I am. But it is a stressful job. I need to do something where I won't receive such a ration of shit every time I make a mistake.
I make mistakes, I don't mind making them because I'm a perfectionist and when you're trying to do things perfectly, you're going to make mistakes, it's only human. I've made peace with my learning process. I need to work at something what will not cost someone money or hardships when I do make a mistake. Right now, that's not at Solar. I think that the people I work with tolerate my mistakes but they don't like it.
I'm a creative and distracted individual. I enjoy the way my brain works and I don't want to succumb to be a duty-driven, tacit employee to benefit someone else. I don't mind being a team player and I don't need to be in charge of the team.
I'll find what I'm looking for because I'm convinced that I get whatever I want, as does my wife so therefore I have the perfect wife. She's an optimist and that's exactly what I asked for.
I'll do the best that I can at my job with Solar Turbines but I also feel that this year--2009 will be the year I really define myself and close-up the way I'm doing things. I have a great deal of confidence in myself and I trust that I am surrounded by people that will support me.
I'm grateful for my employment and for the time I've been there and have left with this company. The fact is, I'm not doing the sort of job that I'd like to be doing. Interestingly, this job is the manifestation of something that I thought I wanted to do. I wanted to be involved in SGML based, technical publishing that was gradually moving into XML technology. We're doing that for the most part but there is a lot of resistance, that and I'm not really sure how to get the department involved in this.
Even if we did, so what? What happens after we publish using XML based technology. I'm not a developer nor do I want to be one and that's what the department would need--a cold, hard developer. So I return to do my job, the job I manifested for myself.
So... Do I manifest another job? Yes, but life's happening as I'm waiting for my perfect job. Solar is not my career nor do I want it to be but I do enjoy the steady paycheck. The other concern is that I haven't had a "choice" job since I worked at IVID communications creating 3D animation.
In order to manifest anything you have to be clear about what you want. You don't have to know how it's going to happen or the mechanism but you do have to try, you should prepare and expect it and you should visualize the final outcome. I knew I'd so something like what I'm doing for Solar Turbines and I expected that I'd be working with nice people, which I am. But it is a stressful job. I need to do something where I won't receive such a ration of shit every time I make a mistake.
I make mistakes, I don't mind making them because I'm a perfectionist and when you're trying to do things perfectly, you're going to make mistakes, it's only human. I've made peace with my learning process. I need to work at something what will not cost someone money or hardships when I do make a mistake. Right now, that's not at Solar. I think that the people I work with tolerate my mistakes but they don't like it.
I'm a creative and distracted individual. I enjoy the way my brain works and I don't want to succumb to be a duty-driven, tacit employee to benefit someone else. I don't mind being a team player and I don't need to be in charge of the team.
I'll find what I'm looking for because I'm convinced that I get whatever I want, as does my wife so therefore I have the perfect wife. She's an optimist and that's exactly what I asked for.
I'll do the best that I can at my job with Solar Turbines but I also feel that this year--2009 will be the year I really define myself and close-up the way I'm doing things. I have a great deal of confidence in myself and I trust that I am surrounded by people that will support me.
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